I have always dedicated time to my family despite pressures from work. i am always responsible and committed but lately I am not enjoying the life I have always longed for. I hate it.
I have been married for the past 12 years with two kids under 10 years. Full time employee with a well paying job.
Lately though I can't shake the feeling that I need to run away from it all. I can' t handle the pressure anymore. Longing for those simple conversations with my family which I cant do. Those precious family moments that always create memories. I can't give anything to anyone any longer. I just can't. I need to just run.
I have been always thinking of a divorce but now I think I can't even take the kids.
I don't know whats going on. I need to find a job and move but even that seems so hard for me to do. I picture myself moving but sleeping for a month....I just tried to sleep this afternoon (NOT A NAPPER) but I couldn't, so why do I picture myself sleeping. I also want to keep a distance from everything and everyone and not even my sisters and parents. I just want to disappear.
What troubles me most are my kids. If I leave them, I wonder if I would not want to be involved in their lives.I know you will all hate me for what I am, but I dont' care. I can't say this to anyone and even if I receive one helpful tip from all the nasty comments I receive that would be helpful. I don't know where else to turn. It's either this, or end my life....I just can't go on....
What advice would you recommend to this troubled soul???
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